I wish you were a disco ball

Please listen Sleepy Eyes X Elohim Whethan while reading.

Hello party people, friendz, strangerz, house headz, and family!!!!

My name is Maddy or Madzdisco, Madz, Matty, Maddie, Maddy G. Whatever you want. I am 23 years old, a Taurus baby, and a board certified athletic trainer. Shoutout Chapman University Master of Science in Athletic Training Class of 2019.

Well how did I get here…. Growing up I was a DIEHARD Jonas Brothers fan girl. I love you Joe!! Then I of course had my Justin Bieber phase where I would tweet “@justinbieber please follow me 1” with a new number after each tweet so hopefully he would see how many times I tweeted him the same message each day. And then my love for champagnepapi, Drake happened. I also listened to Justin Timberlake and Usher on fucking repeat because those are the only CDs my mum would ever play in the car!! From Usher’s first CD My Way to Justin Timberlake’s Future Sex/Love Sounds..I can practically sing every lyric to every song by both artists. And then I was introduced to EDM beginning of college 2014. I went to my first “rave festival” called Hard Summer in 2015, where I made my first “rave bra”. So embarrassing when I look back at it. And that is where I saw and never appreciated Odesza for the first time, the Weeknd, Major Lazer, Jack U, and fuckin Fetty Wap.

And then Fall 2015 I was introduced to It's Strange x Louis the Child by a boyfriend at the time. I fell in love with the song, the beats, the words... it made me feel different. A feeling that the Jonas Brothers could never do for me LOL. The next year, I attended Sunday second weekend of Coachella 2016. My first Coachella experience. I had no idea what I was doing, but I remember seeing Matt&Kim, Chris Stapleton, experiencing the DoLab for the first time, and the rest is history. I then attended HSMF ‘16 where I considered myself more experienced and a vet lol and where I tried molly for the first time (sorry mom &dad). Thank you Mr. Carmack for an unforgettable set. I quickly became a fan of Galantis because their music was fun and pop-sounding. Then I was introduced to Soundcloud and experienced house music for the first time and learned how to discover artists on that platofrm. Thank you Chris for that. Chris was a special one. I thought Chris was the absolute love of my life. And sometimes I still like to think there is some glimpse of hope for our relationship in the future. We had some pretty terrible awful times together, but I have to thank him because introduced me to house and techno, and is how I fell in love with Justin Jay’s Karma and his Fantastic Voyage sets and sounds. And the rest was fucking history!!!!

Starting my Masters program back in Summer of 2017 I was so excited. But the excitement quickly faded during the beginning of the spring semester. Most nights I would cry myself to sleep because of how unsure the future was due to finances and if I chose the right health care profession to study, because I did not want to let down my parents, and from the love or lack of love I was receiving from Chris. Everything was slowly beginning to crumble. Some of my darkest times were the summer going into my last year of the program. All my friends had graduated and moved away from Orange County. I felt so alone. Chris and I had stopped talking. Then I met Connor. Connor was everything and more that I was missing with Chris. But my eagerness, excitement, and dependability on him for happiness proved to be too much (I’m sorry) . Those days and nights were long...

My depression and long days studying led me to really dive into music and connect with it in ways I had never before. I began discovering artists on Soundcloud, Instagram, Apple Music, and found ways to connect with others on a different level. Music became the solution to my problems. I started to lose sight of my future as an athletic trainer and began exploring how I could become involved in the music industry. I did not have time to play an instrument or learn to DJ/produce because of my internship hours and course work but I began attending events and documenting these moments through Instagram or Snapchat. As I went to these events and festivals I started really to take notice of the audience, the vibes, the food, the stage designs, the logistics, the decorations, everything. I slowly realized I had a true passion for music. Not playing or producing, but coordinating and creating events for people just like me. I centered my Instagram strictly on posting about music events and sharing unique songs and parts of the set. People who were not able to attend themselves were then able to somewhat experience it via a video that they could share or look back on at a later date.

I graduated. May 18, 2019. The journey was tough but rewarding. I passed my boards examination and am now Madison Goncalves MS, ATC. Although I do love athletic training, those days are somewhat behind me now. I realized it is not the career path for me long term.

My new dream is to plan large scale music festivals. I would love to be more on the creative side or even be involved in talent booking, artist relations, etc.

Therefore, I decided to start blogging all of my festival and concert experiences alike. Although I love posting videoz on my Instagram of shows, sets, and songs I get to see live, I do not think it is the best platform to use for discussing my opinions and real thoughts on an event I attend.

This is kind of my way to share my experiences and what I think worked or did not work at events. It is my way to keep track of my likes and dislikes to help with my future career.

I am very fortunate to be able to do so many things and meet so many great people. I will never take it for granted.

...and I'd like to think I am alive at the perfect time. The time to experience the best music that will ever be played on this planet.

Best,

Madz